If you think you are ALONE well stop because you aren’t! There is always HOPE :)
I have been going through my notes in my facebook and I came across this, thought I’d share this with you. Many people have gone through depression and have thought about suicide. They think suicide will vanish away the problems and pain but it really isn’t like this. If you think you are alone facing this world, well you aren’t, there are tons of people who are dealing the same issue as you are, killing yourself won’t make the pain go away. It just hurts the people you love love and the memories of you gone will linger in them.
So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right? No. Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They’ll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you’re fooling around. Then they’ll start shaking you. Why aren’t you breathing? They’ll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day. Guilt. More guilt. What about your bestfriends? They’re not going to care. Right? No. What’s the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you’re not alive. While your bestfriend sits there in tears. That girl that you’d smile at but never talk to? She’s now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He’ll be shocked. He’ll be devastated. He’ll blame himself. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind. She’ll question if you did it because she didn’t make school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organises your funeral? Who has to go through your stuff? Clothes? Notes? Those few older girls who used to give you daggers at school? They’ll feel regret. They’ll blame themselves. See, if you killed yourself today, you’ll never know what might of happened tomorrow. You’ll never know because you’re dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. Your family hates themselves for it. Your bestfriend then falls into depression. Tears. Tears. More tears than a river. All because you killed yourself because you thought noone would care. Right? You are loved. By many. Someone right now is thinking of you. And right now, I’m thinking about anyone who has thought or is considering suicide. You are beautiful. No matter if you’re black, white, homo-sexual, tall, short, overweight or anorexic. You are beautiful. You want to kill yourself? Think about it first. There’s no coming back. And I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears than you led yourself to. You are making everyone miserable and making them all feel guilt and pain. Never will they feel whole like they used to when they had you. You are beautiful. And you are never ever alone.
Please if you feel like this, you are depressed, sad all the time, bad break ups, you think the world is against you or you just need someone to talk, PLEASE get help! Don’t go killing yourself, you aren’t just taking the pain away but you are also making your loved ones involved. Killing yourself will just make them ache. It doesn’t really solve out anything.
Find someone to talk to if you have any problems. Your parents, relatives, teacher, a trusted friend, siblings, sisters, monks, priests, and etc whatever. Just to let you know there are a billion of kids probably facing issues like this, some are weak and some are strong. And you my friend…you are strong! You are not alone, there is always hope!